I’m struggling to write a conversion essay/statement. I’ve never had so much difficulty forming coherent sentences and stringing them together. I think I have suich a high expectation set on myself by none other than yours truly that I have a great fear of letting myself down and having this decade-long journey end on such a mediocre point. I don’t want that at all, so I’m struggling to capture my thoughts, my desires, my identity on a page, trying to make me sound worthy enough of entrance into this coveted community (coveted at least by me).
It’s hard. Damn hard. Harder than I expected it to be. So right now, instead of writing on it, I’m writing here.